• language of love.

    September 12, 2005 I am back!!! I arrived back from a week long vacation on the Big Island of Hawaii last night! It was soo much fun. I went snorkeling almost every day, saw the volcanoes and…

    September 13, 2005
  • the universe within.

    September 4, 2005 I finally visited an exhibit here in San Francisco called, “The Universe Within.” This exhibit exposes the human organism in a captivating yet disturbing manner: I saw preserved, human bodies intact, without skin. I…

    September 5, 2005
  • extra-ordinary

    August 28, 2005 Lately I’ve been addicted to spinning classes. In my most recent spinning class, that I take every Saturday morning at 9am, the instructor Tom, put us through a grueling sprint…which meant we had to…

    August 29, 2005
  • lists of failures.

    August 21, 2005 So if you guys have been reading my journals and website thoroughly these past few weeks or months, then you’re probably wondering how the heck I came to be the way…

    August 22, 2005
  • competing to win.

    August 15, 2005 This weekend was pretty busy….which ended with me getting tired, sick and sleepy. I was a guest judge at a pageant this weekend and it was interesting because instead of being the competitor…

    August 16, 2005
  • friendly solitude.

    August 7, 2005 The fun part of my days are usually when I lay down in my bed and I feel totally beat up and exhausted, yet refreshed, calm and content because then I remember…

    August 8, 2005
  • a prayer to a little boy.

    August 1, 2005 Lately I’ve been wondering what part of human history we are living in? If I were to contribute to the social sciences I’d call this era “The age of selfish guilt,” “The era of fear,” or “The pursuit of…

    August 2, 2005
  • my inner voice.

    July 25, 2005 Those close to me know that I have problems saying ‘thank you’ when someone compliments me on most anything. I am very bashful in that sense, and never ‘believe’ that what…

    July 26, 2005
  • understanding choice.

    July 17, 2005 I had a very interesting past week…right around Tuesday night I started feeling fatigued and tired…soon that feeling turned into an acute depression. (I strongly believe this is hormonally influenced.) I…

    July 18, 2005
  • blame.

    July 10, 2005 There is one thing that drives me absolutely crazy: People who blame. People who don’t take accountability for their own actions…people who victimize themselves…people who constantly look at the past for…

    July 11, 2005