August 11, 2009 I often wonder when this website will begin to fade It’s been a long time since I began compiling this site on a simple website tonight’ account on godaddy in 2005. I wasn’t anticipating to write week after week, year after year and even garner a large following sprawling between countries and age groups. All I wanted to do was write to let go of this passion inside of me. To openly question the depthness of…
Loving Myself.
July 29, 2009July 29, 2009 While I’ve been incredibly busy, I’ve managed to get to my lowest weight in five years. Suddenly I’ve been receiving compliments everywhere regarding my level of fitness after giving birth a little over six months ago. It’s admittedly a great feeling to be acknowledged for a feat most new mothers often struggle with. I attribute my success entirely on my healthy diet, my balanced outlook on life and my motivation to be a positive role model as…
Learning to pray
July 23, 2009July 22, 2009 As I type, I’m in L.A., fatigued from five days of sightseeing, swimming and being sick. On Sunday I began experiencing symptoms of a head cold or flu. By Tuesday I could hardly breathe. While I feel better today, I still haven’t worked out in over a week and am still not fully recovered from the busy-ness’ I have experienced these last couple weeks. Since I’ve been gone, I feel a little displaced in my personal, professional…
Our greatest gifts are free.
June 30, 2009June 29, 2009 My mother had a small heart attack on her birthday last week. During dialysis she experienced high blood pressure and a tightening in her chest area. She was sent to the hospital where they discovered she had a heart attack and diagnosed her with coronary heart disease. We can either risk surgery or manage her health through medication. Either way, her desire for a kidney transplant has been compromised and her quality of life has definitely decreased.…
Living Presence
June 16, 2009June 15, 2009 Last week I made a goal to start running more. I knew that in order to see significant physical changes, I needed to place my body under uncomfortable conditions. For me, running has always been a love-hate’ relationship. Not only do I find it monotonous and boring, but most of all, it unpleasantly accelerates my heart rate like no other cardio. My overall goal was to run 10 miles total. While this did not include the 3…
Fitness is my bliss
March 26, 2009March 26, 2009 In my early twenties, I was blessed with the opportunity to meet extraordinary people. These people built companies, created personal brands and amassed good fortunes. Through these people I learned a lot about life and what I needed to achieve internally in order to create a content human existence. During this life period, I contemplated my career, pondered big life questions and drowned my days with heaps of reading and writing. “What is your bliss?” This was…
an identity shift
February 18, 2009February 17, 2009 I can’t remember the last time I felt beautiful. I’m talking fixing my hair, wearing a great outfit and going somewhere where I felt vivacious, young and alive. Most days my hair is pulled back in a pony tail and headband. My clothes cycle between various workout pants and I’m usually applying makeup while simultaneously feeding Christian. While my friends and sister had grand plans for Valentine’s Day, we didn’t plan much. Saturday was a bit rainy,…
a year of blessings
January 1, 2009December 31, 2008 I began 2008 in Hawaii, fresh in love and ready to tackle on new goals. Never in my wildest dreams could I have fathomed ending the year in the place I am today. At this very moment, I can feel the baby moving forcefully inside my tummy in fact, he hasn’t stopped for about an hour now. I love placing my left hand right below my breasts and feeling the baby’s feet press up against my diaphragm. …
Existing for 28 years.
November 26, 2008November 25, 2008 As I type, I am in a hotel at the Redwood National Park, semi-alert from fatigue after visiting Crater Lake in Oregon and other surrounding hiking areas. It was a nice break from Sacramento as it has been very busy for us these last few months; from our FWB programs, article deadlines, doctor’s appointments, family engagements, professional responsibilities and holiday and baby preparations. When David asked what I wanted for my birthday coming up on Wednesday, I…
Soldier of Life: Volume 2
November 19, 2008November 18, 2008 Check out my 2nd compilation of writings titled, “Soldier of Life: Volume 2” Foreward: I am so humbled by all the things that has happened in the years since I began writing publicly. In the years between 2006-2007 I experienced many things: I traveled to Missouri, New York, Thailand and Malaysia. I ended a relationship, moved home to Sacramento and I quit my job. These years represent one of the greatest growth periods of my life. I…