He asked me how I felt. I don’t feel anything. I don’t feel happy nor sad. I’m pensive, but also not thinking of anything at all. I just exist throughout my day without attention,…
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Late last year I did something very “Maria”…. I picked up the phone and called David’s ex wife. After nearly 15yrs watching them battle it out (and being told to stay out of it)…
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Months ago I sat in my office midday, feeling despair, disconnection and division after (another) explosive argument with my husband. In my grief, I took out a piece of paper and wrote two letters.…
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If you were to read my earliest blogs, it’s astounding how so little has changed. When I began this website, I was 25, single and living in San Francisco. In 2005 the world had…
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March 16, 2022 I’ve been seeking small pauses in my life. They aren’t big, normally they last for one second – but it’s the moment when you realize you are in transition, aware or…
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Last year I let go of a lot of things in my life. In fact, “letting go” has been a big part of my mantra both then and now. So I started letting go…
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January 31, 2022 There was a ten year challenge floating around Facebook recently and I decided to recapture an image I took when the boys were 3, 2 and 8 months. It was a…
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My Ten Intentions for 2022: 1) Grow my hair. I miss french braids, wavy curls and I think I look younger.I want to go back to my roots (literally!) 2) Speaking of age…I will…
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My mother passed away on October 15 2021. The day started unusually usual. My husband surprisingly agreed to run three miles with me at 6am. I twisted my ankle on an acorn. I worked.…
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October 4, 2021 Be f*cking honest with yourself. As I write this I am performing home dialysis for my mother – a task no layman should ever do, but WILL do if required of…