August 7, 2007 Saturday night I fell asleep laying on my stomach with my head buried in one of the 20 books sprawled throughout my bed. Ive been in information mode lately especially since I’m venturing into new territories and am trying to prepare myself for the journey ahead. I am living in a winter, absorption season right for my internal spring to bear fruits in the upcoming months. Our total being is based upon seasons: seasons in our days,…
spiritual gifts.
July 25, 2007July 25, 2007 Woah. I feel so exhausted right now. This past weekend was spent at the LA NPC Show where I was able to spend quality time with very special people. I was also able to catch up with new and old friends whom I feel so blessed to know and admire. Currently I feel so absorbed with thoughts, ideas, experiences and emotions that it’s really hard for me to write when I’m in learning mode. For the last…
my confessions
July 18, 2007July 16, 2007 I had a crazy, busy weekend which included a soccer game, a comedy show, an AIDS walk and quality time spent with very special people. Today I am feeling melancholy. That is honestly the best word I could find to manifest how I feel right now. These last couple years of public entries have been an interesting adventure While I talk about events and feelings, I rarely expound on my private life. Over the years, in personal…
My Evening Prayer
July 12, 2007July 12, 2007 I was at a private political fundraising event tonight and am admittedly still buzzed after sipping on a nice collection of wines and consuming delicious salmon cakes. I was in a lively room full of senators, assemblymen, lobbyists and business folks. As always, I still wonder how I get myself into these atmospheres… Since I am slightly intoxicated right now, I have to be completely honest. I have been very, very, very distracted and busy lately. I…
A Life Invested.
July 7, 2007July 7, 2007 Saturday afternoon. WOW! For all y’all who regularly read this site you know I’m never THIS tardy. Ive been admittedly busy, very distracted and immersed in my daily life to complete basic chores and personal commitments. Today however, I plan on doing what most people would find to be an extremely boring day. But I’m so excited! I cant wait until I go to sleep tonight knowing that I was able to organize my life and engage…
creating correct circumstances
June 27, 2007June 26, 2007 Months ago something changed in me. Almost suddenly, I lost motivation to take action in the life I was presently living at the time. I re-thought all past dreams, all present gifts and the circumstances I needed to create in order to get the desired effect of what I really wanted. I decided that if I wanted something I need to create ‘the desire’ for it to come. When I closed escrow and gave back keys to…
Finding your unit.
June 18, 2007June 18, 2007 I spent the weekend in San Francisco! I was able to catch up with a ton of friends and am excited to see some of them come visit me in Sacramento this week! Its been challenging living here. I cant deny it. Less than a year ago, I was in the bustling city, working for 24hour fitness corporate, dining at great restaurants, attending various lectures and living a life I envisioned Id have at the age of…
Dimensions of a sublime image.
June 12, 2007June 11, 2007 Friday night was filled with sushi, sake, red wine and a live 80’s band. I can vaguely remember that late night. All I recall is freely moving alone on the dance floor and staring admirably in the front row in view of all the band mates. I even ‘drunk texted’ some friends that night, who were shocked at my state of consciousness at 3am. After 3 aspirins, a big bottle of water and 4 hours of sleep,…
Life Endurance
June 8, 2007June 8, 2007 Its hot here in Sacramento! I just came back from a short run with Tiger and am earnestly trying to pull some motivation out of me not just to complete this journal, but to also train again in the next half hour before dinner. New Zealand was great. Amazing how you can be one place yesterday and another place today amazing how all you have left is whatever remnant you kept to savor that moment. This morning…
My Happiness List.
May 23, 2007May 23, 2007 Greetings from New Zealand! I am writing in Wellington tired and exhausted from a long drive from Rotarura and a brisk evening walk downtown with my sister. I have been admittedly challenged by my family ‘holiday’, but those challenges are nothing a few frantic phone calls to Spence and some personal prayers can’t fix. In these chaotic, unpredictable days I realized even more that my happiness stems from knowing I am dedicating a portion of time towards…