December 14, 2007 I’ve been terrible at updating this site. There are a few reasons why that is: Firstly, my computer crashed last week and I just had it shipped back to me today. Secondly, I’ve been busy with tons of parties and Christmas preparations. Lastly, I’ve been inundated with a non-ending ‘to do’ list including teaching Catechism classes, writing articles, running errands and working out. This Christmas season makes me very nostalgic of holiday’s past – I still have…
my deepest insecurity
November 28, 2007November 28, 2007 I celebrated my 27th birthday on Monday. I don’t feel old nor young. I feel like I haven’t fully settled since the road trip last week. While I am usually an action oriented person, I feel like Ive been stalling in that department as I haven’t been writing a lot, reading enough, working as hard or training intensely. Now while there is some truth to that perspective, there is also a bias perception of my reality influencing…
Going against the grain.
October 17, 2007October 16, 2007 I will be completely honest. I have been uninspired to write these last few weeks. I’ve been busy driving to meetings, engagements and the gym. I’ve been working on projects that refuse to finish. And I’ve been distracted by a man named David. I’m finding my journal writings, podcasts and blog entries to be more opinionated, less fluffy, yet equally deep. Public opinion is a challenge any person deals with when putting him/her self “out there”. As…
unpretty ruminations
October 8, 2007October 8 , 2007 I have this big, blue project binder that gets heavier and heavier each week. At any given moment, that binder is somewhere 20 feet around me for it houses all my projects, timelines, updates and brainstorming ideas. If I could symbolize why I haven’t been able to post in the last 2 weeks, I would put that binder, my cell phone and the genetic DNA strand in my genes that represent persistence. A single day represents…
Life is not a popularity contest
September 28, 2007September 27, 2007 I’ve never been popular. Ever. I never wear the most fashionable clothes. I never interact with the coolest people. I never do the most sociable things…and probably most significantly, I’m never popular amongst folks because I never say the right things. My journal entries don’t agree with everyone. My daily activities don’t jive with all peers. My energy doesn’t mix with most strangers. I’m selective who I keep in my inner circle, just as those in my…
Seeds of Intention.
September 14, 2007September 13, 2007 Monday was a difficult day for me. A wave of negative energy hit me like a lightning strike and immobilized my ability to drive, to write, even to stay awake. My mind was clouded by a sober coil of confusion and calamity. I almost had an accident 4 times. I even walked into the house with the keys in the car, while the car was still running! Midday, I fell into a deep slumber after releasing suppressed…
9/11
September 12, 2007September 11, 2007 On September 11, the strongest nation in the world was attacked by human bodies inside commercial airlines and then our whole world changed. I was staying with my parents during summer break and was working as a first-time trainer (my goal that summer was to become a kick boxing instructor, instead I became a trainer!) I was 20 years old completing my double majors in International Relations, Asian History, and minor in Political Science at UC Davis.…
My Body.
September 9, 2007September 8, 2007 Last night I visited my sisters new house and while Christine began preparations for dinner, naturally, I ended up making the spaghetti dinner for my niece and nephew. I wasn’t planning on eating a moderate portion of pasta, nor was I expecting temptation from freshly baked brownies for dessert. Yet while I sat on the kitchen floor in communion with those little kids, I savored each bite, I ingested every giggle and I absorbed all the loving…
103 Things about Me.
September 4, 2007
September 4, 2007 Hope y’all had an awesome Labor Day weekend! After some invitations to Vegas and Frisco, I decided to go to a Christian Conference down in LA! I will update my journal by Thursday! In the meantime, late Sat. night I posted a fun list: ‘103 things you didn’t know about me’ since self exploration and public revelation has been an everlasting joint topic of mine. I also ask that you keep Ruth Putney in your prayers. She…
Fearing who you are.
August 30, 2007August 29, 2007 I snuggled up with Tiger underneath a star-less Monday night, waiting patiently for our moon to pass the earth’s shadow. At around 3am I witnessed the moon turn a reddish hue, the sound of all living creatures rose and became more alive. When the night darkened from the loss of its light, I saw a blanket of bright stars revealing its brilliance in the absence of its moon. Incredible. This past weekend I also attended the California…