March 26, 2009 In my early twenties, I was blessed with the opportunity to meet extraordinary people. These people built companies, created personal brands and amassed good fortunes. Through these people I learned a lot about life and what I needed to achieve internally in order to create a content human existence. During this life period, I contemplated my career, pondered big life questions and drowned my days with heaps of reading and writing. “What is your bliss?” This was…
Cherished times.
March 17, 2009March 16, 2009 Christian’s Baptism was held Saturday morning at Good Shepherd Catholic Church. Dressed in a white layered gown, his christening outfit also comprised of a little hat and a stole. David and I were so proud to witness our little, well behaved son get blessed over holy water. Over sixty family and friends came to celebrate his joyous occasion. Afterwards, we convened at my parent’s home where we ate BBQ, socialized and enjoyed each other’s company until evening…
Sweetness after Sacrifice
March 10, 2009March 10, 2009 I am tired. My goal was to get to sleep by 11:00pm tonight but it is now 11:02pm and my day still isn’t done. For the last few weekdays I have been waking up at 5:30am to workout. Training that early is a sacrificial act that requires discipline and tons of motivation. If I fail to train in the morning, it’s rare that I have the energy to exercise at night. By the end of each day…
an identity shift
February 18, 2009February 17, 2009 I can’t remember the last time I felt beautiful. I’m talking fixing my hair, wearing a great outfit and going somewhere where I felt vivacious, young and alive. Most days my hair is pulled back in a pony tail and headband. My clothes cycle between various workout pants and I’m usually applying makeup while simultaneously feeding Christian. While my friends and sister had grand plans for Valentine’s Day, we didn’t plan much. Saturday was a bit rainy,…
Life is changing
February 13, 2009February 12, 2009 It’s 3:21am and I can’t sleep. After taking a short nap with Christian lying peacefully on my chest, I awoke to feed him and couldn’t go back to sleep since then. After proceeding to clean and organize the house, I still feel a jolt of energy that is prohibiting me from going back to bed just to lay and stare at a black wall. Interestingly, it is exactly 5 weeks now since I gave birth to Christian.…
becoming a mother.
January 28, 2009January 27, 2009 I only slept 3 hours last night and I’m finally experiencing some physical relief from my traumatic labor experience 2.5 weeks ago. While I spend most of my days on the couch feeding the baby, I still try to juggle my fatigue with article deadlines, C.OR.E. meetings, care home work responsibilities and family commitments. I’ve definitely tapered my schedule since Christian’s birth, but I haven’t totally eliminated all my routine tasks. Originally, I thought planning continued extensive…
Christian’s BIRTHday story
January 8, 2009January 8, 2009 When the doctor said I was almost ready to push, I stared at David with glistening eyes and a quiver in my voice. I quietly said, “do you remember when we first met…how long ago that seemed?” He nodded with a slight smile on his face. “do you remember when we first talked about having kids…?” My tears finished my sentence. Thoughts of our original intentions, our bonded love and our emotional journey together filled my soul.…
a year of blessings
January 1, 2009December 31, 2008 I began 2008 in Hawaii, fresh in love and ready to tackle on new goals. Never in my wildest dreams could I have fathomed ending the year in the place I am today. At this very moment, I can feel the baby moving forcefully inside my tummy in fact, he hasn’t stopped for about an hour now. I love placing my left hand right below my breasts and feeling the baby’s feet press up against my diaphragm. …
35 memories of my first pregnancy
December 18, 2008December 18, 2008 20 days to go. While lying in bed earlier today I began rubbing my belly realizing that any day now, Christian will be arriving. While a part of me feels saddened when that day arrives, a part of me naturally feels anxious to hold, kiss and hug him. Nothing can explain how it feels like to have a live, human being existing inside of you. It’s an experience I’ve longed for my entire life an initiation into…
LCHS 10 year reunion
December 2, 2008December 2, 2008 On Saturday night I attended the Laguna Creek High School 10 year reunion. It was an event most people were iffy’ about. After all, high school is a transient time and learning curve for most people. As for me, I’ve always been a bit of a social butterfly so it wasn’t too hard to feel at home with people I spent 4+ years of my life with. While high school was definitely hard sometimes, I can’t give…