June 16, 2013

In my mid-twenties I underwent a distinct crossroads in my life.

I was working as a project coordinator for 24 Hour Fitness Corporate, I was in escrow to purchase my first condo in the Bay Area and I was in a compatible but not passionate relationship. I felt like I was ‘where I should be’ in my life – but instinctively knew the path I was creating was not where I wanted to be in five years.

I loved my career but feared not becoming a mother because I witnessed many women becoming lost in their professional path. I loved living in the bay area but knew I wanted to live close to my family when I would eventually have my own. I also knew that while I was compatible with my boyfriend, what I sought was a man with more depth, excitement and passion.

I was comfortable but I was not happy. I often reflected on Robert Frost’s poem, “The Road Not Taken” – as I often felt like I was standing in the middle of two roads diverged: one with ...

June 5, 2013 I always wanted to be a stay-at-home-working-mom. I dreamily envisioned gentle days spent going to playdates and parks. I loved the idea of waking up with them, making their breakfast, teaching them new things and appreciating every milestone they would make because I was home to witness it. I thought working from [...]

May 20, 2013 For the first time in 8 years, I stopped posting regularly on my website. I’ve been busy with work, consumed with activities, exhausted with child-rearing and mildly depressed with my life operations.  Periodically I get down. At the end of a demanding day, instead of working or writing until midnight, I choose [...]

April 23, 2013 There is a nature that exists in us. After all, like planet earth, most of our body is made up of water. When the moon rises, the tides rise. When the seasons shift, so does the current.  If our external world can dictate the waves of the ocean, imagine how it affects [...]

April 9, 2013 I just started a YouTube channel and decided to upload my appearance on Good Day Sacramento. It was the very first time I watched it from start to finish and was reminded of that peculiar period in my life when I felt a strong yet sinister energy surrounding me. For months I [...]

March 26, 2013 When I first discovered we were unexpectedly pregnant I had no income. I lived at home. I didn’t have health insurance. And I wasn’t married. For the first half of the pregnancy I fell into a deep depression. I constantly cried questioning ‘why’ my seamless life appeared to be ‘falling’ apart. Up [...]

March 11, 2013 This is a hard post to write. I’m not someone who lives life scared of being exactly who they are. I’ve traveled to Europe and Asia independently. I’ve admitted to past eating disorders, depression and anxiety. I’ve photographed insecure areas of my body after kids.   What I haven’t talked about is what [...]