And so it is.

    May 1, 2024

    Our divorce was finalized a year ago on May 1, 2023. Exactly one year prior, David “coincidentally” wrote me a letter on 5/1/22 that forever changed our lives. We had been struggling with connection for some time. Our communication left us bitter. Our goals weren’t aligning. Our resentments were building. I was trapped by my unwillingness to “fail.” I believed we should “stay together for the kids.” I was resistant to change, even though growth is happening every second of…

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  • I love you, Dominic.

    March 16, 2024 “You need to fight, Maria,” said my girlfriend tearfully as she took tea bags and snacks out of her purse. I told her I was ok, but she insisted on visiting…

    March 16, 2024
  • Finding my Joy.

    A couple weeks after the cancer diagnosis, I was on a plane to Costa Rica for an Ayahuasca journey I scheduled months beforehand. Originally, I booked this trip to support a friend and felt…

    February 8, 2024
  • I have Cancer.

    Last Friday I woke up at 4am to a gnawing pain in my lower abdomen. I’ve underwent a lot of tummy pain recently and just had a colonoscopy for low iron and internal bleeding.…

    November 15, 2023
  • A New Chapter.

    I remember sitting across from my mother and her friend at lunch exactly seven years ago in a state of bliss. Despite what had erupted the past year in my marriage, I had a…

    May 11, 2023
  • My Love Story.

    February 15, 2023 In the last several years practicing meditation, I learned how to still my mind. In that silence, I started to observe patterns in me and around me. I noticed repetitive words.…

    February 15, 2023
  • Surrendering to my path.

    In all my years posting online, you’ve never seen me post about a birthday celebration Most of my life I’ve always been pensive, melancholy and seeking solitude on my birthday. The question “Why am…

    November 28, 2022
  • My Mirror’s Reflection…

    Late May, after a deep and emotional conversation – I noticed the skin around my lips become uncomfortably dry. As I prepped for my stepdaughter’s birthday, I would press a napkin against my lips…

    August 17, 2022
  • Getting Lost.

    He asked me how I felt. I don’t feel anything. I don’t feel happy nor sad. I’m pensive, but also not thinking of anything at all. I just exist throughout my day without attention,…

    July 22, 2022
  • Becoming “Maria”

    Late last year I did something very “Maria”…. I picked up the phone and called David’s ex wife. After nearly 15yrs watching them battle it out (and being told to stay out of it)…

    July 4, 2022