April 23, 2013

There is a nature that exists in us. After all, like planet earth, most of our body is made up of water. When the moon rises, the tides rise. When the seasons shift, so does the current.  If our external world can dictate the waves of the ocean, imagine how it affects the waves within us…

I’m feeling a lot of seasonal changes within me. For the last few weeks people have been telling me to rest more. I’ve been getting sick more frequently, injuries more easily and irritated more quickly. I think too much. I don’t sleep well.  I feel exhausted: mentally and physically.

I feel like I’ve been working, sowing and running hard for these past few months. It seems nothing is going as planned, nothing is on schedule and while I can work hard – nothing can be expected in return. While it’s tough seemingly running on empty, I know instinctively through reflection, determination, discipline, patience and faith, I will eventually start to see a seed grow.

Not so long I felt ...

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February 4, 2013 I never thought I would be in the elderly care business. Growing up my father worked for the San Francisco Police Dept and my mother was a state worker. While we had a fair upbringing, my ambitious mother always yearned for more. I watched her entrepreneurial efforts working as a consultant for [...]