February 20, 2006 One of the worst things to experience in life is experiencing pain deeper than what any physical element can impact upon you. Throughout my young existence, while I was raised in a house of love…I wasn’t discriminated from that deeper pain Recently I’ve noticed that while my target heart rate zone should measure 130-180 beats per minute, when I perform cardio my heart measures over 200 bpm. Yet here I am on the stairmaster, performing at the…
who are you.
February 7, 2006
February 6, 2006 I feel absolutely un-inspired to write this week. Lately I’ve been reading…thinking…writing…reflecting and living. Usually if I don’t complete an entry by Sunday, I finish by Monday. It is now Monday night and I’m still un-motivated. Last week went very well. For the first time in two years I completed my exercise goals: I weight trained five days and performed cardio all seven days. My eating wasn’t up to par but I felt the need to feel…
inner discipline.
January 30, 2006
January 29, 2006 What a fun week. I saw one of my very good friends this weekend, Dave Slagle, who also works with my favorite supplement store, Max Muscle. I also received an allergic rash from a charity crab feed with my family. (I knew I was allergic but loved crab too much to not eat it) Each week I have been making small goals to transform bad habits into good habits. And each week, while I don’t always hit…
rules in your game.
January 17, 2006January 16, 2006 I am sitting on my rooftop overlooking San Francisco. It’s late Monday afternoon and I can see the highway slowly building traffic from the rush of people trying to get home or to the gym or to dinner. I used to wonder about the lives of other people all the time…when I was little I would peer at other people on the freeway and wonder where they were going, what they were doing, what made them excited…
choose to live…
January 10, 2006
January 9, 2006 It has been almost a year since I began writing my weekly journals. I had no specific vision when I began writing these entries and quite honestly, I didn’t know what I was doing when I created this site: I just knew that I had a lot in me and I needed to expel it somehow. Last year I created this site because I felt internally injured after graduating with double majors and a minor from college,…
waiting for the spirit to move me..
December 27, 2005
December 26, 2005 Merry Christmas Everyone! This is an extra special journal entry because I’m going through a huge settling phase: where I am coming to terms with everything that has happened in my life this year: all my personal experiences, physical battles all the people who have come in and out of my life…it has definitely been a very, very, long year. This week I am settling…meaning that I am coming into myself I am reflecting on past events,…
life without purpose.
December 20, 2005December 19, 2005 This past week my youngest sister graduated from college, my niece had her 3rd birthday, we had a new fitness club opening in Piedmont and an old friend, Jean Carls died at the age of 94. I met Jean three years ago when I assisted in her during a visitation to the doctors and I can still vividly remember her talking with her physician and expressing how she didn’t understand why she was still living and how…
S.P.E.E.D>
December 14, 2005
December 13, 2005 I am sitting in the middle of moving boxes, drinking red wine and eating broccoli in a temporary kitchen office at exactly 1:03am. I have been sooo busy lately. From a long drive from Arizona to San Francisco last weekend, a 24 Hour Fitness Express convention in Pleasanton, a big, annual Christmas party in Sacramento, and work deadlines, unpacking, Christmas decorating, working out and eating moderately in-between all the chaos. It was Saturday night at 11pm in…
my birthday
November 27, 2005
November 27, 2005 I am now officially 25! I shared the day with close family and friends in an intimate gathering at my friend, Brian Woo’ s residence in San Francisco. Besides a beautiful ring and jewelry making kit from Louis and pretty drop earrings from Barbara, I didn’t receive many gifts. In dedication to my late cousin, Michael Greenway, I requested instead, that people donate to the Holland Opus Foundation for kids who were musically gifted but living in…
determination to get sh*t done.
November 22, 2005November 22, 2005 This journal entry is dedicated to the word “Determination.” The ability to have a fixed intention and reach a resolution. This is a small insight of one year and a half – of my young, determined life. I spent some time in Lake Tahoe this past week. Louis and I went biking, hiking, painted ceramics, visited Reno, attended a comedy show, watched the movie Walk the Line (which was awesome) and performed a ton of outdoor…