August 21, 2005 So if you guys have been reading my journals and website thoroughly these past few weeks or months, then you’re probably wondering how the heck I came to be the way I am…While my bio lists my accomplishments, what I would like to share with you now, is what people tend to not list: and that’s their failures. High school was very difficult for me. My 2nd week there I was confronted by a group of girls…
competing to win.
August 16, 2005
August 15, 2005 This weekend was pretty busy….which ended with me getting tired, sick and sleepy. I was a guest judge at a pageant this weekend and it was interesting because instead of being the competitor on stage, I was now looking from a judge’s perspective what I really wanted to see in a winner. The best advice I was given when I first started competing…and the advice I now give today, is to “be yourself.” I never understood why it was…
friendly solitude.
August 8, 2005August 7, 2005 The fun part of my days are usually when I lay down in my bed and I feel totally beat up and exhausted, yet refreshed, calm and content because then I remember I just had a super efficient day that began with a kick butt workout! This morning I completed a 33-mile bike ride in the “Tour de Peninsula” with my friend, Connie Wu. It was interesting because it was the first real, physical event we participated in together. You see…Connie and I are…
my inner voice.
July 26, 2005July 25, 2005 Those close to me know that I have problems saying ‘thank you’ when someone compliments me on most anything. I am very bashful in that sense, and never ‘believe’ that what someone is stating is true or from the heart. Believe it or not, I have a hard time looking at myself most mornings and believing I’m actually ‘fit’ or ‘pretty.’ What I find interesting is that what we see and what others see is so different. I truly believe…
understanding choice.
July 18, 2005
July 17, 2005 I had a very interesting past week…right around Tuesday night I started feeling fatigued and tired…soon that feeling turned into an acute depression. (I strongly believe this is hormonally influenced.) I started lying around a lot…staring at the wall, not even working out! I know myself well: and I know that because I have had difficulties with my menstrual cycle…I have fluctuating chemical imbalances…I also know, that for the last couple years, my drive to be disciplined…
blame.
July 11, 2005
July 10, 2005 There is one thing that drives me absolutely crazy: People who blame. People who don’t take accountability for their own actions…people who victimize themselves…people who constantly look at the past for reasons why they are in their present. I strongly believe that people who blame surrender their power to others. They weaken their ability to change the sails of their own ship because they let the wind dictate where they end up going. Why am I saying this? Because this past week,…
Re-connecting our differences.
July 5, 2005
July 5, 2005 Happy Independence Day! As all of you know, I am very patriotic. And why shouldn’t we be? If we are Americans, we are celebrating a piece of us, right? To me, independence day means more than barbeques, firecrackers and a day off…it signifies a BIRTH day…a day that our nation was born. Ever since I was little, I always rooted for the underdog- and in the eighteenth century, when Britain, France and other European countries ruled the world:…
Let your dreams absorb you
June 28, 2005
June 27, 2005 I just spent the weekend in Reno celebrating my mother’s 44th birthday. She invited family and friends on a weekend excursion to celebrate her day with everyone. During dinner on Saturday I decided (after several pleas not to from my sisters) to get up in front of the room and lead a group exercise. I asked everyone to talk about a moment they shared with my mom that they remembered and cherished the most. While everyone brought physical…
who you really are.
June 23, 2005June 22, 2005 I have something to share that I think will benefit anyone who wants to ever achieve anything noteworthy in their life. Obviously, I am a goal-oriented person. I constantly ask myself whether something is either for or against my long term goals…I analyze this concept with the relationships I form, the books I read, the films I watch and the time I spend doing anything. I firmly believe that who we are is an accumulation of what we continually…
a common thread.
June 13, 2005June 12, 2005 What a crazy weekend! This morning I ran the “Muddy Buddy” Race in San Jose with my alumni friend, Minji Wong. It was cccrraazzzy! We basically traded off running and biking for 6 miles (on a hill I want to add) with obstacle courses (wall climb, mud trenches, rope climb, monkey bars) in-between….in the end we crawled through 20 feet of messy, dirty mud to the finish line. It was hilarious because it was like a community shower at the…