April 23, 2006 I cut my hair! Over 7 inches of it! Saturday morning I woke up with an urge for change. These past few weeks I’ve been training hard, working hard and playing hard. But, while I have been spinning the wheels and producing potential energy for a future effect, my patience to see change right now is stuck in the pace of our world’s natural winds of time. Each day I’ve been waking up with an…
Your past never leaves you –
April 22, 2006April 23, 2006 I cut my hair! Over 7 inches of it! Saturday morning I woke up with an urge for change. These past few weeks I’ve been training hard, working hard and playing hard. But, while I have been spinning the wheels and producing potential energy for a future effect, my patience to see change right now is stuck in the pace of our world’s natural winds of time. Each day I’ve been waking up with an…
Stopping forces you to look..
April 19, 2006April 18, 2006 Tuesday night – wow! I usually finish this by Sunday or Monday at the latest. Times are going by faster and days seem busier…while I’ve been maintaining this journal for over a year now, I am always questioned as to why I do it – week after week, month after month… I remember a moment a couple years ago when I was running around a 4 mile lake and I was huffing and puffing, engaged entirely in…
every day is a new battle..
March 28, 2006March 27, 2006 “Every Day is a New Battle.” I have that quote plastered on my bathroom mirror so I am reminded each day that it doesn’t matter what I did yesterday, or what I plan on doing today, what truly matters is what I am going to do right now, that will take me that much closer to becoming the person I want to be. This past week I went to IHRSA in Vegas, spent all…
one year defined.
March 20, 2006March 19, 2006 In 2 days it will be this website’s one year anniversary! Wow, my journals have definitely changed since I first began with a simple paragraph expressing how learning about you is ‘fun.’ Well the enthusiasm hasn’t drifted, nor has the desire to recollect each week and move forward by understanding where I stand ‘right now.’ Where I am ‘right now’ is like trying to capture an moment in life through the tiny millisecond of…
courage to desire
March 14, 2006March 13, 2006 This past weekend was my sister, Christine’s 24th birthday. It was a great celebration to be close to my family once again..the way we were when we were little children. I come from a very beautiful, tight knit family. My sister’s are two of the most beautiful women I know.and that humbles me. It humbled me as the eldest sister growing up in a family full of head strong, confident, outspoken girls and it humbles me today…
false images.
March 6, 2006
March 5, 2006 This weekend was the Arnold Classic – while Louis and I weren’t able to attend, we did spend some time discussing our views on the industry. One of my favorite competitors, Jenny Lynn, withdrew due to extreme dehydration. While it bothered me, it didn’t surprise me. From my experience, while we ‘represent’ health, competitors aren’t necessarily very healthy. In my first competition, I took a pill to shed water a few days before the contest- I also…
one step closer
February 28, 2006February 27, 2006 I just got home from a dinner with my good friend Mark Sackett and Im nibbling on some peanut butter! This past week Ive been doing a lot of celebrating, dancing, planning and meeting people. My good friends Barbara Pochop, Betty Hsu and Minji Wong all celebrated birthdays in the month of February. Ive been fortunate to make some loyal and beautiful friends in the last few years, and it was an honor to celebrate a day…
addicted to pain.
February 21, 2006February 20, 2006 One of the worst things to experience in life is experiencing pain deeper than what any physical element can impact upon you. Throughout my young existence, while I was raised in a house of love…I wasn’t discriminated from that deeper pain Recently I’ve noticed that while my target heart rate zone should measure 130-180 beats per minute, when I perform cardio my heart measures over 200 bpm. Yet here I am on the stairmaster, performing at the…
who are you.
February 7, 2006
February 6, 2006 I feel absolutely un-inspired to write this week. Lately I’ve been reading…thinking…writing…reflecting and living. Usually if I don’t complete an entry by Sunday, I finish by Monday. It is now Monday night and I’m still un-motivated. Last week went very well. For the first time in two years I completed my exercise goals: I weight trained five days and performed cardio all seven days. My eating wasn’t up to par but I felt the need to feel…