January 31, 2012 The end of each day feels like a blur. It’s impossible to describe the chaos in raising three kids, 3 and under. If I’m not nursing Gabriel, I’m dividing my time with the other boys so they don’t feel neglected. We are drawing shapes, playing outside or reading books. Gone are my midday naps, evening workouts, and recreational books. The earliest I can get on this computer each day is 11pm when the boys are sleeping. While…
Power of Perception
January 5, 2012January 5, 2012 This is my favorite time of the day. The boys are all asleep. The house is clean. The dishwasher is stacked and the laundry is running. My husband is sitting beside me watching a Netflix movie online while I am typing with the Food Network quietly running in the background. It’s nearly silent. And I love it. I rarely get headaches – maybe one every two years. However, for the last few days, my head has been…
God Always Provides
December 16, 2011December 15, 2011 I slept in until 10:30am today. In fact, this entire day I didn’t go out, remove my pajamas or check my emails or voicemails. It was a day lazily filled with reading Brenda Warner’s “One Call Away”, playing with the boys and lounging around my bedroom. Today was a far cry from the busy life I had assumed for the past few months. Last night was my breaking point: there I was, having painful but irregular contractions,…
Winning with Friends.
November 22, 2011November 22, 2011 We celebrated my “Mommy Shower” this weekend. My best friend, Borina Mak, and mother planned this special day, which included a day at the spa and a luncheon with my closest girlfriends. It was a perfect day. I’m so thankful to have incredible people in my life to share my life-transforming experiences with. Throughout this entire pregnancy, I’ve rarely been pampered or reminded to sit down, relax or take it easy…so, it was nice to celebrate one…
A new evolution
November 5, 2011November 5, 2011 In March 2005 I started this site on a “website tonight” godaddy account. I remember creating five distinct pages in my favorite colors of pink and green. It wasn’t much. I had an introduction, bio, gallery, poetry and journal page. In less than two hours, I started building an online home for my deepest thoughts, ambitions and fears. I didn’t have a single reader, nor did I care. At 23 years old, I had a burning desire…
Memories of Fall
October 5, 2011A few weeks ago we received our wedding DVD. I didn’t want to watch it until everything was unpacked and we were settled into our new home. I saw it as a prize at the end of the tunnel. When we finally sat down to watch the video, my heart was filled with various emotions. I chuckled when I saw David and I laugh uncontrollably because of an inside joke during the wedding ceremony. I squirmed when I listened to…
Climbing Life’s Mountain
September 29, 2011September 29, 2011 The house is finally in its last stretch in coming together. The new furniture has arrived, the frames have been hung, the clothes have been sorted and my office is complete. My life has become more organized and my routines are taking shape again. I’m not stressed, tired or irritated. I’m actually a little bored. Sometimes I wish movies and television entertained me. Besides the handful of times I’ve played ‘Pacman’ in my life, I’ve never enjoyed…
A mother’s solitude.
September 20, 2011September 19, 2011 I’ve avoided writing for the past few weeks for a variety of reasons. Firstly, we were vacationing in Hawaii. Secondly, we moved to a larger house. Lastly, my mind has been clouded with stressful thoughts and fatigue – so it was really hard to sit down and write something meaningful when I knew everything I would release was resentment, stress and anxiety. Even now, I finally sat down after a day of cleaning, unpacking and tending to…
Moments between pictures…
August 22, 2011August 21, 2011 We are leaving for Hawaii tomorrow. Our clothes are packed, the refrigerator is clean, Christian’s backpack is full of books and toys, the house is clean and there is not one piece of dirty laundry or dish in this house. After a long week of working, organizing, running errands and completing my long to-do list, I am finally fresh-from-the-shower, in a bathrobe and able to devote my last couple hours awake to my websites. I don’t plan…
Playing catch
August 10, 2011August 9, 2011 I have been crazy, ridiculously, unsustainably emotional lately. The other day, I called my mother complaining about a bothersome issue and she said, You know who I feel sorry for? I feel sorry for that baby in you. It must be hard going through so much stress just existing inside of you. Of course, I started to cry more. No surprise, since my hormonal tears come out instantaneously at any given moment and for any given reason.…