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August 2005

extra-ordinary

August 29, 2005

August 28, 2005 Lately I’ve been addicted to spinning classes. In my most recent spinning class, that I take every Saturday morning at 9am, the instructor Tom, put us through a grueling sprint…which meant we had to ride as fast as we could manage. And so I began moving my legs with exponential speed, challenging myself to see how much my heart, my muscles and my mind can withstand in this period of chaotic control. In this moment of personal contest, I recognized, that like anything in…

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lists of failures.

August 22, 2005

August 21, 2005 So if you guys have been reading my journals and website thoroughly these past few weeks or months, then you’re probably wondering how the heck I came to be the way I am…While my bio lists my accomplishments, what I would like to share with you now, is what people tend to not list: and that’s their failures. High school was very difficult for me. My 2nd week there I was confronted by a group of girls…

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competing to win.

August 16, 2005

August 15, 2005 This weekend was pretty busy….which ended with me getting tired, sick and sleepy. I was a guest judge at a pageant this weekend and it was interesting because instead of being the competitor on stage, I was now looking from a judge’s perspective what I really wanted to see in a winner. The best advice I was given when I first started competing…and the advice I now give today, is to “be yourself.” I never understood why it was…

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friendly solitude.

August 8, 2005

August 7, 2005 The fun part of my days are usually when I lay down in my bed and I feel totally beat up and exhausted, yet refreshed, calm and content because then I remember I just had a super efficient day that began with a kick butt workout! This morning I completed a 33-mile bike ride in the “Tour de Peninsula” with my friend, Connie Wu. It was interesting because it was the first real, physical event we participated in together. You see…Connie and I are…

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a prayer to a little boy.

August 2, 2005

August 1, 2005 Lately I’ve been wondering what part of human history we are living in? If I were to contribute to the social sciences I’d call this era “The age of selfish guilt,” “The era of fear,” or “The pursuit of loneliness.” With all the terrorism…the war…the natural disasters…life seems uncertain, scary and fearful. We are in a very interesting period in America. Our country hasn’t been this divided since the period before the Civil War. We humorously criticize our president…we buy big cars, big houses, and lots of insurance to…

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