you have to really want it, in order to get it.

December 5, 2005

December 4, 2005

I spent the weekend on an impromptu trip to Arizona. The last couple days were filled with packing boxes, visiting Louis friends, and spending moments reflecting, reminiscing and remembering special places, special friends and special days he spent while living in Phoenix.

I don’t talk about my personal life often, but I do talk a lot about goal setting, commitment, focus, love, determination and passion. You know when you find someone extra-ordinary when he/she redefines what all those words personally mean to you. Louis has redefined who I am as a woman. I know that my role in life is to love, support, share and provide the compassion, nourishment and patience only a woman can give to a man.

Louis is moving to be close to me in San Francisco. I met him through a shared passion to help people and our friendship became strengthened when he donated to a charity walk I participated in. I sent him a card for his birthday and he sent me random, funny text messages until finally: after informal emails, we connected via phone. We started talking four to six hours a day, each day, every week, month after month.

I would never have met Louis unless I knew what I wanted. When I was little girl I wanted a handsome man, then I wanted a rich man, then I wanted a hero. I eventually got what I wanted, but two years ago, I realized that I wanted all the wrong things. I didn’t want someone who was only interested in material wealth, or the aesthetics of a physical body. I wanted someone who was had a warrior spirit, a healthy body and a beautiful mind. I’ve wrote and re-wrote my list of characteristics and qualities of my future mate a million times, and while I have a mind box of maps and plans on how to find the man I sought there was nothing in my mind box that predicted or prepared me for the universal alliance between me and Louis.

Like Fitness, the only way to bridge the beginning and end of a journey, you have to have a destination in mind….and the only way you can dream of the place you haven’t seen, is to create an intention that stems from a sincere thought.

I could not recognize the gifts I receive today, if I didn’t recognize the gifts I was given yesterday causes and effects are taking place every day you can only physically perceive a portion of the magic and miracles that are happening around you. Like me, you will never know what is in store for you next.

Today he is making a commitment to us. We are not saying our relationship will work or that it won’t work. But we do know, that like life: in order to get what you want, you have to really, really want it, in order to get it. If you don’t really, really want it, you’re not going to get it. We will travel hills and valleys we will live every season each year we will challenge each other’s souls but we have a joint goal. All I know is that we made a commitment to get there…and we really, really want it. Thank  you Louis.

My boyfriend lost an amazing 140 pounds and is part of an amazing Fitness community: