January 12, 2012

I don’t get on my computer much. If I’m able to access any online connection, it’s through my cell phone, which I am able to use sometimes as I’m nursing or in-between tasks.

Right now it’s nearly 11pm, the baby is sleeping and while I should be sleeping also, I can’t. I have to complete payroll, send out invoices, return emails and update my sites. I am not working too much after giving birth (especially compared to Nicholas) but I try to definitely keep the wheels turning in my professional world. Now that it’s 2012, I certainly make new goals for the year. There are several business ventures churning in my brain hoping to manifest this year.

While my girlfriend visited me the other day we discussed how much motherhood had changed her. After being laid off she was excited to be a full-time mom and spend entire days with her new son. Having known her for years, it was great to see how she had truly enveloped the beauty of motherhood. She asked me if motherhood had done the same for me.

I was silent.

I always knew I wanted to be a mom – but I also knew that I needed a career that also allowed me to engage in my passions, challenge my skills and yield income. I knew I couldn’t be exclusively a professional woman or exclusively a stay-at-home mom.

I’ve always made it my mission to be a stay-at-home-working-mom.  Even when I worked as a fitness manager or project coordinator for companies, my occupation always allowed me the flexibility to work at home nearly 50 percent of the time. Even before children I always made it a point to create a path that was conducive to what I desired in my future.

If you want something – you must prepare for it. When you prepare, you are in the motion of manifesting what you want. Life opportunities are capitalized by those who are prepared.

My life is a rolling example of opportunistic moments….

When I taught aerobic classes in high school, it gave me the confidence before I made my mark as a personal trainer in college.

When I began writing fitness articles online, it gave me the experience before I was asked to be a magazine columnist.

When I volunteered at nonprofit agencies, it gave me inside knowledge before I created my nonprofit Fitness without Borders.

Even when I yearned to meet a man I wanted to love and marry one day, it gave me the void I needed before I finally met my husband.

I’m a big believer that if you want a certain life…if you want to be a certain person…then you must live that life and be that person Right Now.  This means you believe in something and act like you’re something – even when you’re not. It means you are charting out your life course according to your perception, until the world eventually climbs onboard and agrees with your perception also.

Right now I am quietly envisioning the person and the life I want to manifest. Years from now, when the opportunity arrives, I’ll let you know what I was thinking.