If you were to read my earliest blogs, it’s astounding how so little has changed. When I began this website, I was 25, single and living in San Francisco. In 2005 the world had yet to experience the black hole of social media, controversial viral posts and distracting 15-sec dance videos. I was writing my way through this world, seeking to connect and tell my story because I felt so many was defining mine up to that point. 17 years…
March 16, 2022 I’ve been seeking small pauses in my life. They aren’t big, normally they last for one second – but it’s the moment when you realize you are in transition, aware or in auto drive. I will give you some examples… When I fall asleep at night, or while I am dreaming, I am aware when my consciousness shifts and there is an energetic wave enveloping my body and brain preparing it to go into a deeper slumber.…
January 31, 2022 There was a ten year challenge floating around Facebook recently and I decided to recapture an image I took when the boys were 3, 2 and 8 months. It was a famous, controversial, conversational and inspiring portrait of who I was a decade ago….a woman who needed attention. I had overcome many things at that point. I struggled with my weight throughout my twenties and despite having three kids in a row, I was in great shape.…
My Ten Intentions for 2022: 1) Grow my hair. I miss french braids, wavy curls and I think I look younger.I want to go back to my roots (literally!) 2) Speaking of age…I will be 42 this year! A big focus is anti-aging. I love consistent facial treatments and I like trying dift products helping with wrinkles, dark spots and under eye circles. I didn’t start wearing moisturizer until my late thirties so I have a lot of catch-up. 3)…
October 4, 2021 Be f*cking honest with yourself. As I write this I am performing home dialysis for my mother – a task no layman should ever do, but WILL do if required of them. I have watched and lovingly supported her through strokes, heart attacks, kidney failure, diabetes…and every single time she was additionally hit with pain, depression, anxiety… “They” always had a pill to save her. And it never did. It masked symptom after symptom. Despite emotional stress,…
September 6, 2021 In the last year of not being able to travel outward, David and I have been journeying inward. It started with a plant medicine retreat for his birthday, followed by a Dr. Joe Dispenza retreat for mine. David partook in a breathwork class, even expressing one day he’d like to be certified. We started uncovering our hidden traumas and cyclical life patterns that prevented us from loving ourselves and truly becoming our best selves. We saw how…
August 18, 2021 What would you do, if you didn’t care what other people thought? If you posted and didn’t care how many likes you got? Or if you created something and didn’t care if anyone acknowledged it? How would it feel to not care? I go about my days so operationally – so abundantly – knowing that I’m just checking shit off my list. I’m efficient. I’m a fixer. I get stuff done. But how “woke” am I in…
August 13, 2021 I no longer fight this aspect about myself nor wish things were different. When energy leaves, we seek to fill it – whether it be good or bad energy, we fill space when absent of it. Awareness is the first step in recognizing what needs to shift in order to redirect a more purposeful life.…
May 30, 2021 I’ve been internally occupied for some time now. Last year I began a more aggressive journey towards self-realization. I went on a plant medicine retreat. I attended a weeklong advanced meditation retreat with Dr. Joe Dispenza and followed up with another one months after. I’ve been meditating nearly daily, journaling, reflecting, praying and crying. There were moments when I felt time stand still – when things were happening around me, but I was not ‘in’ me. I…
March 25, 2021 I started this year getting Covid. I was exposed by an asymptomatic work colleague (who wore a mask). In the weeks that followed, each of my immediate family members also tested positive. My first initial symptoms were body aches and head tension. I thought it was the cold as I test regularly, and I was negative just a few days prior. I had a low-grade fever one night but was fully functioning after 48hrs. My husband developed…