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The day my Mother died.

December 15, 2021

My mother passed away on October 15 2021. The day started unusually usual. My husband surprisingly agreed to run three miles with me at 6am. I twisted my ankle on an acorn. I worked. I attended a meeting at a carehome. I picked up my niece from school for the first time and we had vegan ice cream and walked the shops. I dropped into Ulta, where my stepdaughter was getting her haircut. At around 4pm I received a call…

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Only YOU can Save You.

October 4, 2021

October 4, 2021 Be f*cking honest with yourself. As I write this I am performing home dialysis for my mother – a task no layman should ever do, but WILL do if required of them. I have watched and lovingly supported her through strokes, heart attacks, kidney failure, diabetes…and every single time she was additionally hit with pain, depression, anxiety… “They” always had a pill to save her. And it never did. It masked symptom after symptom. Despite emotional stress,…

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How I “cope” with my abundant life.

August 14, 2021

August 13, 2021 I no longer fight this aspect about myself nor wish things were different. When energy leaves, we seek to fill it – whether it be good or bad energy, we fill space when absent of it. Awareness is the first step in recognizing what needs to shift in order to redirect a more purposeful life.…

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What makes a good mother.

May 10, 2020

Not many people know this, but I’ve become a caregiver to my mother recently. Her kidney transplant failed ten years later and my sisters and I are were tasked to perform her home dialysis machine five hours a day, 5 days a week.⁣ ⁣ I was incredibly fearful in the beginning. It was a technical learning experience. A deep fear and realization that I was responsible for her life and a daily commitment I was unsure I could handle. ⁣…

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How do you know you’re alive?

February 25, 2020

“Why do I always feel like I’m in a dream?” Perplexed, my doctor didn’t know how to answer my son and instead questioned, “Well, how do you feel?” He replied, “I feel like nothing is real.” In an effort to save the doctor I interjected saying, “Honey, if you ever feel like you’re in a dream, just pinch yourself. Do that now (as he pinches his wrist). Do you feel that?” He nods. “Well that’s how you will know.” I’m…

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My son’s summer camp at iD Tech

May 15, 2019

This post is sponsored by iD Tech. Do you ever feel like a ‘bad mother’ for letting your kid play video games? When I walk downstairs in the morning, my eldest is already in my office playing Roblox. When I enter the family room, my youngest is already watching his 20th slime video on YouTube. When I go the kitchen, my middle guy is eating breakfast while listening to music on his new iPod touch. As much as I’ve limited…

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I feared becoming a mother.

October 28, 2018

October 28, 2018 Many people think being a fit mom means you aren’t a good mother, that you don’t spend time with your kids and that your body is your number one priority. I get that assumption – after all, it’s not easy being a fit mom without seemingly sacrificing parts of your life to be healthy. I’ve been rereading old diaries lately and came upon an entry reflecting on one of my deepest fears. At the time I was…

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Life on your terms

June 1, 2017

A couple weeks ago I witnessed my stepdaughter graduate high school. It was a celebratory moment, a time when I saw her genuinely happy and excited about the future. It was hard to believe that ten years earlier, I met a strong-willed, 8-year-old little girl who loved to dance, workout and be incredibly helpful. I love her focus, ambition and independence. While visiting, I also celebrated my other stepdaughter’s 16th birthday. Weeks leading up I was in shock that our…

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How I built my stepdaughter’s money cake

May 21, 2017

I surprised my stepdaughter with a money cake for her graduation because she’s been a hard worker her entire life and is leaving for college soon! She knows I can’t gift her with a boring check, so I created this creative money cake to surprise her on her graduation day! This cake can be made with minimal material and within 3-4 hours (depending on how fast you roll money!). Here are my tips: Tips: Do not use super/hot glue on…

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What’s My Excuse?

October 28, 2014

I yelled at my kids today. I don’t usually yell. I’m usually the loving but strict mother, with a strong undertone in her voice, who’s glaring eyes can persuade their kids to clean their rooms, eat their vegetables and stop fighting in 1 …2…, well there is no 3. Because we never get to 3. But we got to 3 today. After an intense several weeks of non-stop working, a late wake-up call and a rush out the house to…

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