I was betrayed today.
I woke up and received a notification that my Instagram password and email was changed. I could see who the perpetrator was and in shock, called her immediately, but she didn’t answer. I haven’t spoken to her for some time and relieved her from being our NEM Instagram manager months prior. I discovered that she renamed the account and told thousands of No Excuse Mom followers that she rightfully felt what she built was hers.
Suddenly memories flooded my head of the day I created the account and when she kindly accepted to manage it. I recalled the small clues of distress and the day she left a peculiar email. I thought of recent miscommunications with a mutual colleague whose influence most likely triggered the event.
In my baffle, I began communicating with top leaders on how to best handle this – and I chose, to not name her, but let followers on my social pages know that our account was compromised and to seek our new account. I had already ‘Let Go, and Let God’ – and was ready to rebuild.
I wasn’t prepared for what would come next. At her own will, she identified herself online and made false statements, which she would soon delete. I detected people within my own circle that started to show true colors. For the first time since last year, I started to feel unprotected, vulnerable and hurt.
I don’t hide much about my life and perhaps that’s why people ‘follow’ me. I don’t pretend to know it all, be it all or have it all – I’m a work in progress, a person trying to become her best self, a woman who is striving. What I have learned in great times of pain is that a lesson is always gained. Like any exercise, your performance will reveal strengths and weaknesses in your body/structure. In this case, I discovered cracks operationally and am working so this never happens again. I also weeded out people who I instinctively should’ve removed a long time ago. Most importantly, I discovered the strength found in amazing people – people who kindly shared their sympathy, support and stories of when they experienced a similar betrayal.
I saw a rainbow today.
After several rainy days at home nursing me and my sick family, I decided to get fresh air and a new perspective. I was amazed at the gift that was gloriously extending itself in the sky….a beautiful rainbow that symbolized new beginnings. After the rain (and pain), true colors will reveal itself – and it is a blessing to see this now, than deal with it later.
Tonight, as I write this, I want to openly say to my adversaries that I don’t hate you. I don’t have malice against you. I am sorry if you ever felt any of our interactions was nothing but sincere and genuine. I have forgiven you and I’m moving on.
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