do what you love.

September 5, 2006

September 4, 2006

Happy Labor Day! This past weekend Louis took me to San Diego, where we stayed at a condo right on Mission Beach. It was a nice ‘break’ from our ‘normal’ routine – but while it was a ‘vacation’ in all sense of the word: personally, what made me most relaxed was coming home.

A while back I told myself that if I needed to ‘vacation’ from my life –  then I needed to change my life and not ‘go on vacation from it.’ Unless someone can transfer my brain into somewhere else – it didn’t matter where I went, how I looked or what I had I would continue to be haunted by the good and bad thoughts that seeped in my mind on a day to day basis.

While we enjoyed the company of others, I was encouraged to eat heavy, drink alcohol, lay around all day and ‘relax.’ Yet, everything I was encouraged to ‘do’ – I knew my body didn’t agree with. What makes me happiest is fueling my body with nutrient rich foods, drinking fresh water and utilizing my muscles in a fun activity. While drinking toxic liquid, damaging my skin and consuming empty calories was fun at one point in my life, right now, I feel more in touch with what makes me happy more than ever and I knew this type of ‘fun’ wasn’t fun for me anymore. I loved my life today and I couldn’t wait to get back to it.

It took me a while to get here. What I mean by ‘here’ – is being ‘here’ in a place of contentment and peace in my heart.
This type of satisfaction isn’t something you can buy, consume, travel to or attain physically – it’s something deep in your heart that you
discover and when you do, it’s priceless.

I discovered internal realization through adversity, challenges, and my will to ‘live’ when there were so many things in my life that promoted weakness.

Confucius once said, “If you do what you love, you won’t have to work a day in your life.” So while many people took ‘breaks’ from their lives this weekend, I pray that the biggest realization was their need to create a life that they
loved and wanted to ‘exist’ in versus having to escape from it three times a year.

Happy September Everyone!