November 27, 2005 I am now officially 25! I shared the day with close family and friends in an intimate gathering at my friend, Brian Woo’ s residence in San Francisco. Besides a beautiful ring and jewelry making kit from Louis and pretty drop earrings from Barbara, I didn’t receive many gifts. In dedication to my late cousin, Michael Greenway, I requested instead, that people donate to the Holland Opus Foundation for kids who were musically gifted but living in…
November 22, 2005 This journal entry is dedicated to the word “Determination.” The ability to have a fixed intention and reach a resolution. This is a small insight of one year and a half – of my young, determined life. I spent some time in Lake Tahoe this past week. Louis and I went biking, hiking, painted ceramics, visited Reno, attended a comedy show, watched the movie Walk the Line (which was awesome) and performed a ton of outdoor…
November 13, 2005 For a few years now I have been having issues with food it began with a disgusting fat day that I indulged in each week when I dieted for a competition or a personal contest then it started becoming an obsession. I used food to control a lot of my emotional surges. I feel that we all try to control life in some way: for me, and for most people in this world: the hardest thing to control…
November 8, 2005 Ever since I was a little girl I used to cry at night wondering why I lived wondering why I was even born. I became conscious about my existence at a very young age, and ever since then, Ive been searching for an answer each day still wondering why I exist. Tonight as I was drawing on a piece of paper while talking to Louis on the phone, I began sketching flowers, rainbows, Christmas presents, planets I…