Finding a responsibility.

October 27, 2009

October 26, 2009

I haven’t written anything in two weeks. Usually when I don’t update my journal it’s because of a single reason: I’ve been extremely, incredibly, unbelievably busy.  There has not been a single day when I am able to take a meandering stroll to the park or idlely spend time watching an entire television show. There is simply too much to do and too much to think about in my current life. Right now I’m not only preparing to host a Halloween party this upcoming weekend, but I’m making costumes, writing articles, meeting people, tending to the baby, working at the care home or operating the house.  The biggest thing occupying my personal time is my plans to extend one of my business’, which of course is creating more meetings, more financial planning and more sleepless nights wondering, thinking, forecasting…and praying.

I’m a visionary, a planner and a goal setter…but more than anything I’m a goal achiever. I like to get things done.

However, before I go out to pursue anything, I put a lot of thought, planning and preparation into my project so that my execution and ability to adapt to unexpected changes will be easily tackled.

In the next year I am focused on creating a life that will support a large family and allow me to continue working in my passion as well as be a stay-at-home mother. I’m focused on raising a healthy son, delivering a strong baby and building a resilient family.  My desire to achieve a level of personal, professional and physical success burns in me so heavily right now, which is why I choose to write on this today.

Years ago one of my mentors told me that one day my life will settle’ down. As a successful business owner, he knew that his life didn’t truly begin until he had a family and became responsible for people outside of himself. My mentor knew that my greatness always laid in
my precocious desire to become responsible of managing employees and helping people. He also knew that I enjoyed to spontaneously travel, take risky adventures and quit my job whenever I felt like it. I still remember the day when I sat in his office and he told me that my greatness would further shine when I finally settled’ down and became responsible to build, nourish and support a family.

And so here I am.

I’m desiring things I never once desired. I am aiming for things I never once fathomed wanting and most of all, I’m driven to create a life a stability, a life that I once thought was boring and redundant.

Becoming responsible changed me. In fact, that was probably the biggest triggering factor in my personal triumphs at a young age.

At five years old, I felt responsible for my siblings and became a young role model.
In my preteens I felt responsible for my mother and began assisting her with daily chores.
As a personal trainer, I felt responsible for my clients and worked hard to provide the best support I knew they needed.
When I became a manager, I felt responsible for my staff and the success of my department.
As a nonprofit founder, I became responsible for the students I served and the programs I executed.
And now…as a mother and wife’, I am responsible for the health of my
relationship, my son and the baby existing inside of me.

Responsibility changes people.
Sometimes the first step you need to make in order to achieve a personal desire is to choose to be responsible of something…anything…as long as it moves you, inspires you …and changes you.

Becoming a mother has changed me. God Bless.

Journal Pictures: October 19, 2009

Check out the beautiful sky after the horrible storm we had
last Tuesday. Luckily, we put our Halloween decorations up
the day after!

Christian is now 9.5 months!
Here he’s playing with his Uncle Daniel, David’s younger brother.

Making our Halloween costumes Saturday night! All I have to say is
I took a sewing class – and I still had to glue my costume together!
Hopefully my belly won’t get bigger because my costume is designed
to fit me RIGHT NOW.

The baby at 14 weeks. We get to know if it’s a boy or girl in less than a month!
I think I popped a cute little belly this past weekend! BUT I still haven’t gained anything?
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