September 1, 2010

I don’t usually update this site during daylight hours as it is 3:40pm as I type. However, it seems that whenever I can put in hours anywhere I do. If I have 30 minutes to train, I get on my treadmill in the garage. If I need to eat, I consume one of my pre-made tuna sandwiches in the fridge. If I need to clean, make phone calls or run errands, I test myself to see how much I can get done without a ten minute time frame.

Right now, I am praying that David arrives home shortly so I can go to the post office, then to Kinko’s and then to a back to school night at a school hosting my nonprofit program. (I am supposed to be AT the school by 5pm yikes!) Afterwards, I want to try to get a quick workout, and then go to two care homes to update their medication charts for this new month. When I arrive home later tonight, I want to finish some work online, answer emails, hopefully spend time with the boys and get some sleep.

I’ve been trying to get up early to train but it’s been really difficult since the kids wake up promptly at 7am. If I’m not out the door by 5:30am, there’s no way I can get a good workout knowing that the kids are waking and I am not present to assist with morning rituals. In the back of my head, I’m always thinking of another deadline, another grant to write, another project to complete, another website to update, another person to contact

I make myself dizzy as I write this.

This past weekend I was out of town on work-related business. It was the first night I slept through the entire night since Nicholas was born. (The kids stayed behind with David) I spent the night with my Maid of Honor, Borina Mak. I had lunch with my Kettle bell buddy, Adrian Pimentel.  And I had a great morning workout with Fitness model, Mona Liza Reyes.  

It felt like the days when I traveled without hesitation and spent generous amount of time with my friends in the city.

As I was jogging up flights of stairs, also known as the Stairway to Heaven with Mona Liza during a very early meet up, we started discussing our lives, our ambitions and our significant others. Similarly, we both share a zeal for life unparallel to most people.  In our lives, we always imagined a partner who can match that energy, that drive and determination to be physically and professionally extraordinary.

As much as I always wanted someone who matched my drive and desire to ambitiously conquer professional feats, what I needed was someone who grounded me and subconsciously guided me to be the best person he knew I can become.  

I am able to be who I am and do the things I do, because of David. Not only has he taught me patience, but he has given me unconditional support in my endeavors regardless of how high the mountain appears to be. It took me a long time to appreciate the beauty of what divides us.

Last year, David came with me to Back to School night passing out flyers and encouraging parents to sign their kids up. He went to my earlier nonprofit events and assisted with my first high school fitness club. He gives me quiet time when I need to write and he watches the kids when I need to go out to train.  

Wanting someone to be just like myself is a narcissist want that my immature mind desired when I was younger. Now that I’ve become a woman and realized what I truly needed I know, that what I need is someone who will not only be the rock that grounds me, but also the rock that raises me up.

But most importantly what I need is someone who won’t give up. Who will never fail me and will never fail us.

Happy Birthday Honey.