Living Presence

June 16, 2009

June 15, 2009

Last week I made a goal to start running more. I knew that in order to see significant physical changes, I needed to place my body under uncomfortable conditions. For me, running has always been a love-hate’ relationship. Not only do I find it monotonous and boring, but most of all, it unpleasantly accelerates my heart rate like no other cardio.

My overall goal was to run 10 miles total.  While this did not include the 3 miles a ran on Sunday morning, I contemplated heavily on considering that run in my total output severa times throughout the week. When Thursday hit, I still had not completed
one mile.

As I sat lazily on the couch at around 8pm Thursday night, David asked me what I wanted to eat for dinner. In a sulky voice, I said, nothing.  After he inquired what was wrong, I admitted I had been so busy that entire week and as a result, failed to complete my running goals. So he asked if I wanted to go running at that moment…I said no. He asked if I wanted to go the gym while he watched the baby…I said no. Then he briefly went away and reappeared with the baby both dressed to go out. I then asked, where are you going? He responded, I don’t know what you’re going to do, but we’re going out for a run.

After a slight smile, I put on my sneakers, placed the baby in his jogger and ran three miles with David last Thursday evening.

The next day I completed four miles and while we went out of town on Saturday, I still completed my goal of finishing the week off with
running my last three miles.

Doing something my body was not accustomed to was a challenging effort.  However, I knew more significantly that in order for things to change, something had to change.  I want to develop a leaner physique. I want to build a successful nonprofit organization. I want to become a more devoted girlfriend, a more supportive daughter and a more trusted friend. I want to be an exceptional mother.

While I feel it’s important to display daily gratitude for the big and small gifts in your life, I also think it’s equally important to aspire a
better you’ each and every day. In order to be better’ you have to place your spirit and mind under conditions that challenge your current self. When I’m fatigued during my last two minutes of sprinting, when I’m tired but sacrificing my time to support a family member.

When I don’t want to do something, yet discipline my mind to get it done

I know I am living presence aware and able to manifest who I want to become.

Journal Pictures: June 15, 2009

David took me on a surprise trip to Carmel and Big Sur this past weekend!
The weather wasn’t very sunny, but the company was all that mattered.

I absolutely adore this picture of him.

My goal was to run 10 miles this week.
Here I am after my workout at the hotel’s gym. Mission accomplished!
(I am 21 weeks post-prego in this picture.) Follow me here.