Emotional Exhaustion

September 12, 2006

September 11, 2006

I feel emotionally exhausted right now. In a matter of 1 week I’ve managed to make several life changing decisions that will alter the course of my future.

I already notified my landlord that in 2 weeks, I will be leaving San Francisco and relocate to Sacramento for a brief stay to take care of personal issues. By the end of this month, I will be on a plane to Malaysia for a few weeks to visit my father’s hometown and neighboring cities.

I’m excited to travel as I usually do each year…but when I return, my life and how I know it today is going to change.

My head hurts from thoughts, my eyes are swollen from crying and my body’s fatigued from moving. Yet whatever the weakness I feel right now, I know that when I go to sleep tonight, and wake up the next day:  I will train hard, work hard, play hard and most importantly…I’m going to continue praying.

“There is nothing constant but change.” What symbolizes your character and your strength to overcome any adversity is your ability to adapt to any situation…to keep your internal faith alive by staying true to a guiding light that you can’t see, smell or touch but only visualize in a distance.

I’m a dreamer. And I’m always hoping for the impossible. My friends and family always told me that my ‘persistence’ is my Achilles heel but also my greatest strength.

Persistence. Passion. and Prayer: I will probably mentally chant these 3 words in the upcoming months.