November 22, 2010

5 more days left. Absolutely crazy. I contacted all our wedding vendors, crossed off my to-do lists and created a special wedding portfolio for my wedding coordinator complete with tabs such as: our itinerary, wedding party, photo list and 10 things that will drive me crazy. After waiting for nearly two years, David and I will finally tie the knot by the end of this week.

Every day this week has an event planned. Tomorrow we have a mini-Casler Thanksgiving, on Wednesday is David’s Bachelor party, on Thursday is Thanksgiving and besides our rehearsal dinner on Friday, Friday is also my 30^th birthday.

Almost 30 years ago, I came to this world from my mother’s womb. The act of housing a child in one’s womb, then having him/her exit into this world is much more symbolic to me now that I’ve become a mother. As I look into my sons eyes today, I see so much hope in them so much I desire for them to be and accomplish in their lifetime.

I want them to discover their passion and create a life followed by a purpose. I want them to live sincere, simple and sensational lives. I want them to travel, explore and become who God intended them to become. When they are wise enough, I want them to fall in love with a woman who will see the beauty I see when I look at them and partake in a lifetime of dream catching together.

I know these desires and dreams are what all parents want for their children.

And as I turn 30 years old and participate in the Sacrament of Matrimony the very next day, I believe that I’ve become what my parents desired me to be.

At 30 years old I’ve graduated from college. I’ve lived on my own. I’ve traveled abroad.

At 30 years old I’ve experiences puppy love, high school crushes, and passionate break ups

At 30 years old I’ve managed facilities, created a non profit and started a business

At 30 years old I’ve had two kids, built a home and met a man I want to spend the rest of my life with

I don’t often like to boast about my life, but as I turn 30 years old, I proclaim that I am very proud of my life. I’m proud of the hard decisions I’ve made, the sacrifices I took and the disappointments I overcame to become the woman, the mother and very soon.the wife, that I am today.

30 years ago I was formed in my mother’s womb and designed for a life purpose. All these years of internal struggle, I’ve often questioned God’s design but today I am not.   

At 30 years old, I know this is where I’m supposed to be.

While past birthdays have been hard on my soul and weary on my psyche this new decade is a new Maria Kang.a new Maria Casler.