February 25, 2013
For the past ten years I’ve been writing “Cover of a Magazine” as one of my top three goals.When I was nearly 150lbs I knew it was far-fetched. When I was pregnant three times in a row, I knew it was impossible. Yet, whenever I had time to sit in silence and write out my goals, I always longed to be on the cover of a magazine. To me, getting a cover was an accomplishment. After all, the magazine editor felt your image would attract and encourage consumers to read.
In the past few months I was able to land the cover of Sacramento Parent and Max Sports and Fitness magazine. I was surprised and appreciative of both opportunities. I remember not so long ago, envying the lives of my single friends. I desired their ability to travel, their freedom to enjoy weekend nights and their skill to become the best in their chosen career.
I was semi-depressed in those thoughts. I thought about the obvious benefits of being a mother, but also all the things that I sacrificed in doing so. I didn’t get an award or a raise for being able to juggle nursing, cleaning, cooking and changing diapers in a 2-hour time span. I didn’t get to ski when the snow fell or book a ticket to Mexico when a cheap Groupon landed in my inbox. My sense of self worth was no longer defined by the things I had or the things I did.
My world was redefined.
Time held more value than any amount of money. Sleep was more precious than a fun-filled evening out. A hundred daily kisses, twenty hugs and seven “I love you’s” was all the fuel I needed to keep going in a stress-filled day.
While tackling my main job as a mother, I continued to get my daily ‘me time’ in my morning runs or hourly training session as the gym. After they fell asleep, I continued my work projects and networking with other professionals in my fields. I may not wear heels anymore. Brush my hair every day….or spend recreational time reading, sleeping or training anymore –
But I was able to sustain some physical and professional goals, while maintaining my personal goals with my family.
In doing a ‘little for myself’ each day, I was able to accomplish one of my biggest professional feats. I never knew when the opportunity would present itself, but I knew I would be prepared if it did. A popular quote says that ‘Success is when Preparation Meets Opportunity’.
By remaining steadfast in my current blessings and appreciating what I had versus what I didn’t, I was able to exist more fully despite the times when I envied those who seemed to have a life filled with freedom, fun and festivity. I still envy other people who seem to ‘have it all’. Yet – after I grasp that my goals is not the same as their goals, I realize that I don’t want their life.
I want my life…with all my crazy kids, my funny husband and my stressful schedule. I want everything that comes with being a fitness role model. This includes not drinking Frappacinos, ordering fried appetizers, missing workouts and drinking every weekend. I don’t mind not traveling. I don’t care if I lack some sleep. This is the life I chose. These are the goals I made.
And I’m living it.
I love this cover photo (for my Facebook page) created by Dane San Pedro.