I’m not just a body.

October 24, 2018

October 24, 2018

It’s been a good year since I started re-evaluating my life on social media. I didn’t want to equate my personal value via likes, comments or followers. I didn’t want to ride with the tide of fitness influencers who posted sexy selfies, heavily repeated motivational quotes or hard-to-do-workouts. I didn’t want to lose myself in the process of expressing myself in a world of faceless feedback.

I started writing about what I cared about – which was my family, my marriage, my passions and my projects. I didn’t get the engagement I saw other colleagues received, but I was okay with that. I was ok losing followers. I was ok lacking likes. I was ok.

Truth is: I didn’t know how to express who I was. In a single day I wear multiple hats as a mother, wife, business owner, nonprofit founder, product creator and social entrepreneur. There are so many things I want to talk about, yet they are the same things people don’t want to hear about. After all, who wants to know about the person who passed away at my care home or the huge load of laundry on my son’s floor? Who wants to know that I spent all weekend at a soccer tournament or am working on a new training program for our No Excuse Mom communities?

I hit my snooze button nearly every morning, mostly because I work late every night (like now at 12:46am). I am usually not motivated to workout because there is simply no reason why I need to workout. I don’t have an upcoming photoshoot, I’m not a fitness model or trainer and I don’t get paid as a fitness influencer. I force myself to exercise because of discipline – because I know it’s important.

I’ve spent the last year rethinking my journey – revisiting past intentions and desiring my old motivations to make mountains move. I work really hard, but nothing is harder than digging real deep inside oneself and finding why you exist.

I don’t want to be just a body anymore.

I don’t want to be a fit mom, with nice abs and toned arms.

I want to be a fit mom with a big heart and a passionate purpose.

I want to live authentically knowing that I lived this life not as how people wanted to see me, but how I wanted to see me.

The only way to win without losing yourself in social media is to not become a slave to your stats. Don’t weigh your self-worth in the comments of strangers. Don’t defend yourself.

Your value is not there.

Your value is not there.

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