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waiting for the spirit to move me..

December 27, 2005

December 26, 2005 Merry Christmas Everyone! This is an extra special journal entry because I’m going through a huge settling phase: where I am coming to terms with everything that has happened in my life this year: all my personal experiences, physical battles all the people who have come in and out of my life…it has definitely been a very, very, long year. This week I am settling…meaning that I am coming into myself I am reflecting on past events,…

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life without purpose.

December 20, 2005

December 19, 2005 This past week my youngest sister graduated from college, my niece had her 3rd birthday, we had a new fitness club opening in Piedmont and an old friend, Jean Carls died at the age of 94. I met Jean three years ago when I assisted in her during a visitation to the doctors and I can still vividly remember her talking with her physician and expressing how she didn’t understand why she was still living and how…

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December 14, 2005

December 13, 2005 I am sitting in the middle of moving boxes, drinking red wine and eating broccoli in a temporary kitchen office at exactly 1:03am. I have been sooo busy lately. From a long drive from Arizona to San Francisco last weekend, a 24 Hour Fitness Express convention in Pleasanton, a big, annual Christmas party in Sacramento, and work deadlines, unpacking, Christmas decorating, working out and eating moderately in-between all the chaos. It was Saturday night at 11pm in…

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you have to really want it, in order to get it.

December 5, 2005

December 4, 2005 I spent the weekend on an impromptu trip to Arizona. The last couple days were filled with packing boxes, visiting Louis friends, and spending moments reflecting, reminiscing and remembering special places, special friends and special days he spent while living in Phoenix. I don’t talk about my personal life often, but I do talk a lot about goal setting, commitment, focus, love, determination and passion. You know when you find someone extra-ordinary when he/she redefines what all…

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my birthday

November 27, 2005

November 27, 2005 I am now officially 25! I shared the day with close family and friends in an intimate gathering at my friend, Brian Woo’ s residence in San Francisco. Besides a beautiful ring and jewelry making kit from Louis and pretty drop earrings from Barbara, I didn’t receive many gifts. In dedication to my late cousin, Michael Greenway, I requested instead, that people donate to the Holland Opus Foundation for kids who were musically gifted but living in…

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determination to get sh*t done.

November 22, 2005

November 22, 2005   This journal entry is dedicated to the word “Determination.” The ability to have a fixed intention and reach a resolution. This is a small insight of one year and a half – of my young, determined life. I spent some time in Lake Tahoe this past week. Louis and I went biking, hiking, painted ceramics, visited Reno, attended a comedy show, watched the movie Walk the Line (which was awesome) and performed a ton of outdoor…

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making things come alive.

November 13, 2005

November 13, 2005 For a few years now I have been having issues with food it began with a disgusting fat day that I indulged in each week when I dieted for a competition or a personal contest then it started becoming an obsession. I used food to control a lot of my emotional surges. I feel that we all try to control life in some way: for me, and for most people in this world: the hardest thing to control…

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life tribute.

November 8, 2005

November 8, 2005 Ever since I was a little girl I used to cry at night wondering why I lived wondering why I was even born. I became conscious about my existence at a very young age, and ever since then, Ive been searching for an answer each day still wondering why I exist. Tonight as I was drawing on a piece of paper while talking to Louis on the phone, I began sketching flowers, rainbows, Christmas presents, planets I…

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universal symbol of healing.

October 31, 2005

October 31, 2005 Happy Halloween! Ive been exuding so much creativity this past week. I cooked delicious meals, potted plants, crafted costumes and created new work projects. I exuded A LOT of mental energy to write this – and I’ve gotten a lot of questions on how my thoughts and writings ‘come alive’. So I NAVIGATED this entry into sections to help you absorb my mental path. -MY BODY BECAME SICK- Early Saturday morning I became very sick and couldn’t…

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death succumbs me.

October 25, 2005

October 24, 2005 Today while driving to the gym, the road was partially closed because there were thousands of runners participating in the Nike Women’s Marathon and Half Marathon benefiting the Leukemia and Lymphoma Foundation. I couldn’t help staring at awe at these women who sacrificed a Sunday morning to put their bodies under 26.2 miles of stress in dedication to those who died and suffer from cancer. Last year I participated in that same run only I ran 12.1…

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